-time::05:50 p.m.-
hey y'all...its funny, i really talk like that now. im getting ready to go to the movies with a friend. theres a big football game at my school tonight and i really wanna go but i already...oh well im gonna have fun. a lot of ppl asked me to go and i feel bad, had to call all of em and say no. therell be more. im really starting to like school. i really really miss all my old friends, but im starting to fit in and find my own group again. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Any ways, the weekend in CT was awesome. i had a good time and i was sooo happy to see everyone again. friday i went to Vinal..my old high school. i saw all my friends at lunch, and i was attacked with hugs, felt good to be loved,hehe. my friend zak wrote me a song and guitar tabs to go along with it and played it to me. then i went to hairdressing and saw all the girls. and when i went back to microcomputers to see zak jesse and ryan...and brittany, they wrote another song and sang it to me. i saw a couple other people i hadnt heard from in forever. then the wedding was awesome. so pretty and nice weather. i danced all night. it was great to see everyone again, but it was hard to say bye all over again and know that there was a possibility i wasnt comin back cuz there was nothing to come for. my friend hannah is prob. gonna come visit me sometime soon, and anyone else who loves me enough will be down eventually. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ i got my drivers permit and drove for the first time the other day. almost killed me and my mom and dont want to do it anymore. some people just werent born with motor skills...
-time::10:01 p.m.-
hello everyone. sorry the titles kinda depressing. i realized my titles are always a song. either what im listening to (like now) or a title that describes how i feel...so anyways ummm now you know. well, 2nd week of school has gone pretty good. made some more friends. everyones starting to talk to me now. one girl drove me home one day and hung out at my house a bit b4 work. 3 guys already like me, 2 asked for my number.(not to be cocky, but i was shocked)Then thursday a bunch of kids in my class invited me to a football game but i didnt go, so friday they nagged at me for it and convinced me to go to one that night. Footballs big down here. it was a lot of fun though. my brother brought me and i met a bunch of kids there. then saturday/ yesterday, me and this girl becca went to see transporter 2. very corny and unrealistic but good. then my bro and i went to the mall, but i got real sick and he had to bring me home right when we got there, after i RAN to the nearest bathroom...on the other side of the mall in the foodcourt with josh trying to keep up as i practically knock people over. then today i slept in and i feel like a loser cuz ive been sitting on my bedroom floor workin on a puzzle most the day. tomorrows no school and my dad goes back to Connecticut. :( thursdays skool pics, and that night i leave for connecticut. friday i see all my friends at vinal and sunday is the wedding. i have a busy week.
-time::10:07 p.m.-
hey hey, 1 week of school down!!! Im not enjoying it very much. i will say that it has gotten better, since the 1st day, even in this short amount of time. people arent as friendly as i thought they would be. There are a lot of cliques and they're not very accepting of new people or anyone outside there clique for a matter of fact. so getting adjusted hasnt been too easy. my cosmetology class hasnt been working out very well. they ended up not having a shop or a teacher for the class i was in and there was only 4 of us. the other 3 girls are seniors. i get along really well with them and they're really nice, but im only with them in cosmetology and classes im alone. we finally fixed our class problem today and got transfered to another school which isnt as good as vinal but better than nothing. i have kids of every grade in my classes and its weird. my lunch wave has 600 kids in it and the school has 1200 total. so its very intimidating. im starting to like my classes more, i think im gonna change one tho. but besides being alone for half the day and scared and lost in a crowd, its good.(it sounds worse than it is, i exaggerate)i still wish i was at vinal though. someone needs to conveniently kidnap me. hehe. well i just got home from going out to eat with my mom. it was fun, the waiter kept trying to flirt. good stuff...well im tired g'night
-time::09:50 p.m.-
'ello everyone. im home. that was a long vacation, dont wanna do that again. i realized sumthing very important while i was there too... i now no who my true friends are, which is noticeably less than what i thought. very pathetic!, but really good i think, not mad about it, quite happy to be sure bout sumthin. but i think i was afraid to move because i was going sumwhere where i didnt know anyone. In CT i knew a lot of people and was content..so i thought, even tho most my friends were kinda fake or not as close as i thought, ya know?(im talkin like sumones gonna respond) but ne ways, being away for that long i missed my family more than any friend, and i was happy to see sum friends but not as xcited as i thought id be when i thought about these things beforehand. i was busy most the time, doing things for other people(person)and got no acknowledgment for it which hurts, but a lesson learned. The one person i wanted to see the most wasnt able to show which earned a good cry, that was very much so needed. but you gotta take the good with the bad, which was a nice balance i think. i did have fun. i hung out with my friend chris and his mom who i stayed with. went swimmng, shopping, got spoiled with new stuff. I saw my dad... we went to see stealth and went out to eat another night at one of my fav. restaraunts, outback, and he gave me money to put in my savings account that i emptied for my friends wedding. got a new red sox shirt cuz there the best team, and i got my haircut by a girl i used to work with and was really close to. she was my 2nd mom, and we went out to lunch and spent a couple hours talkin. then 1 night i slept over my friend emmys house. I got a boost to my confidence when i beat chris at football and basketball. he got me at golf and baseball tho. then i learned how to do a front flip 180 on his diving board. got a lot of pictures to add to my scrapbook that i gave up on but have decided to start again, so i can add a couple people. Now my friends aliya and kendra came home with me, and we just got back from seeing a movie. last night, my and my siblings, kendra, and a bunch of other kids we met a month or so ago went out for pizza. tomorrow morn me and kendra doing some door to door service work(witness stuff for those of you who arent sure)and tmrrw night, me and my bro are just gonna hang out and go around on his street bike. monday next week i start school, really scared but everyone says itll be ok. well im really tired and have the biggest bags under my eyes so im gonna go to bed..way past my bedtime, and i gotta get up early.(italian for cya later-->) arrivaderrci....
-time::11:52 a.m.-
hey ya'll. in about 15 minutes im leaving for ohio. My mom, my sisters, and i are going there for the weekend. Gonna be an 8 hr car ride which is never fun, but ive done much longer, so i guess its not too bad. Im super xcited cuz my dad is flying out there to meet us. i havent seen him since i moved and hes not moving down until octoberish. but then on monday im flying back to CT with him. Gonna be there for a week then im flying back home. i was going to be alone, but some friends have decided to come on the same flight as me and come visit. theyll be on another part of the plane tho, so i guess i am flying solo in a way. Anyways, im really xcited, mostly about going back to my first home...CT. im busy everyday too getting together w/ different people. i feel loved actually!And im all tan cuz i spent a few hours at the pool yesterday with my sister. sucks i have no friends to go there with tho...o well. alrighty theres a few things i need to pack still so i gots to be going. ill be back in about 2 weeks, call my cell or email me or sumthing if ne one wants to talk while im gone.
-time::10:10 p.m.-
im mad right now. i still cant fix this dumb thing. i even lost the last entry i wrote about what i ruined. now all my entries are gone and i give up so im starting over now. so at the moment it looks really boring, but itll fill up again. im really aggrevated right now about a few things actually. One thing, which i think will turn out fine in due time(im just nervous),and my new school schedule, and other things i dont even remember what they were. but now i no i was mad b4 so that bugs me, and the fact i cant remember annoys me. so im a wreck right now.The worlds coming to an end.well...i am a little happy, i just got home from the mall.i actually went to 2 malls today. fun. my brother bought me this really good smelling lotion that i was begging for, and i bought a new shirt (on sale too). and i bought gifts for my friend emmy. and wednesday, i got a cell phone. really xcited about that. and at the mall i got a new cover for it, its my fav color now. monday im going to get my permit, and me and my mom have been car shoppin for the future. my noni wants to sell me her hyundai sonata w/ wood interior and practically no miles on it. and its a v6. we looked at a '97 white mustang for 5 grand, but it was a v8 so that was out. so i guess things arent too bad, but i really wish i knew what i was so mad about...o well obviously its not that important, im just so paranoid...ugh